I will write my name 100 times I will raise my hand before speaking I will wait my turn I will stay in my seat I will not throw spitballs I will not pull girls’ ponytails I will not snap bra straps I will keep my hands to myself I will not drug my classmates I will not rape my classmates I will not invite others to rape my classmates I will not learn anything by writing it I will keep doing what I can get away with
Roaring engines at three a.m. Racing north up the highway Throttling the noise Screeching to a halt As they approach the stoplight Just past my house
Again the roaring engines Having made u-turns at CVS Barrel south out of town Yeehawing with delight Waking the sleeping Humans and creatures alike.
I wonder. Is it for safety they choose Deserted streets in the predawn hours? Or is it for danger? Exhilarating Into the darkness, chancing the unknown. Silence is the stage Echos are the applause.
When we were young I knew you’d be a mom. Loving babies into becoming Wild, wonderful, wunderkinds.
I knew you’d be a wife Loving your husband into becoming Hugger-in-Chief Successful at serenading Partner in parenting
I knew you would be an artist wearing creative clothing A poet filling journal pages inspired by your quote collection A dancer moving to music freely expressing life A musician at heart expressing emotions in song A forest wanderer knowing the names of flowers and trees and birds A mountain log cabin lover willing to live with fresh air and bugs A reader comfy in an easy chair Pages lit by the sunlight
I knew you’d be a grandma Enjoying the delights of littles Running into your arms Hugging you and not letting go.
I knew you’d leave behind The masks you collected As you butterflied into being Your beautiful wonderful you.
Your dark eyes Where I look long for love Lack warmth, shirk honesty, Drip with disdain. A smirk tilts your mouth Your brow furrows with pity Your beautiful face mirrors your inner thoughts betraying some interest in me, Though it be mournful For the suffering you cause me. Your heart is hard, Shut off from my care Causing me to mourn. I can’t resist your allure So I will defend you Just to keep your gaze.
Thine eyes I love, and they, as pitying me, Knowing thy heart torment me with disdain, Have put on black, and loving mourners be, Looking with pretty ruth upon my pain. And truly not the morning sun of heaven Better becomes the gray cheeks of the east, Nor that full star that ushers in the even Doth half that glory to the sober west As those two mourning eyes become thy face. O, let it then as well beseem thy heart To mourn for me, since mourning doth thee grace, And suit thy pity like in every part. Then will I swear beauty herself is black, And all they foul that thy complexion lack.
“Fiji will you untangle this for me?” Shoving a handful of satin cords and netting all in black, 3 plastic men in blue, green, and yellow, and 3 silky parachutes – Evidence of some playing gleeful games Tossing them up and watching them float Down down down Not one at a time but all at once To see which would be first Or last I don’t know which would be better?
“Hurry Fiji hurry!” Old eyes focus on the faint sheen of the satin ribbons, knotted and twisted With tufts of netting caught in the maze Stretching openings while balancing 3 paratroopers, I call for another pair of hands. The work is slow, tedious, threading Or should I say unthreading? A man through here, another there
“Are you done yet?” No…
“I’ll take it now”, he assures us But we keep at it, frenzied now, afraid To mess it up. Finally, free at last!
“Gimme!” And he runs back outside I’m sure to tangle them again.